| 16th, at 06:19pm|
|Im just as bad as them..|
So.. Not to long ago.. Klar made a DA entry about church people and religion and stuff, and im usually very unhappy with it, but i was watching that show on Mtv, True Life, and this one girl just up and desided that she wanted to go from a party girl, to being a nun, and i noticed that the moment she said that, I lost respect for her. It actually surprised me how quick i was to look down at her choice of life, and that makes me very close minded. Which is something i really hate, and is one of the biggest reasons why i hate people who are very religious... They can be some of the most close minded people. Not all of them, but some. So i gave myself a good yelling at for judging her to quickly, but then she started talking about how now she prays for her friends to convert, and she nags at them for the things they do... and just stuff like that. Now, there are people out there who take their religion, and use it for good. There are nuns out there who help the needy, who do a lot of awesome things, and i totally respect that, however this girl.. wanted nothing to do with that.. infact she said "I don't want to help people. I just want to pray and be close to God" and um, i think rule number one about becoming a nun is that you can't be selfish. Thats all this girl is being.. Selfish. She put down her friends, and said that they just aren't important anymore. Well ,she went to talk to her priest, or 'father' about some things..and said how breaking up with her boyfriend was hard, because she loves him so much, and he said to her "sometimes you have to give up someone great, to be with someone greater"... and i just about wanted to scream. He was talking about God. I have never ever known a more hypocritical religion in my life. Isn't vanity one of the 7 deadly sins? Um.. isn't it extremely vain of God to expect people to drop important people in their lives, just so they can devote their own life to him? THATS selfish to me.. and its also bullshit in my mind. It upsets me that people think they have to throw away friendships and relationships with people who love them, so they can go throw their life away to some 'thing' that probably isn't even real. I mean... God gave you life, what better way to spit on that gift by doing nothing but kissing his ass? I don't think thats WHY he put people on this earth.. The more and more i hear about God and things, the more i hate the whole religion. I mean.. he is an asshole if he put us all on this earth so that we can sin and all go to hell.. and the only way we wont.. is to fucking worshup him?! Thats grade A bologna! |
I do not believe in God. I do not think the Bible is something that should be taken word for word. Its nothing more then a book of life lessions. Do i dislike all people who live their lives that way? No. One branch of my family is extremely relegious. They never ONCE pushed their faith on me ever. They live their lives, and love me for living mine. That i highly respect. Its when people start to grow pity... Start to go "I'll pray for your converson" Don't pray for me ok. I don't want it. I live my life in sin, and God gave me free will, so i can pick to live my life however i want... and honestly.. EVERYONE sins. I try and do my best and mind my own buisness, as long as i don't see someone trying to impose their religion on others. Its only when people start to do that, i get mad and upset.. and the only people i've ever seen do that are Catholics and some Christians. I've never heard of Buddha and hell.. even the Jews don't force shit. But im not touchin the Jews. I don't know enough about them except catholics and christians take -their- book and try and decode it. Um.. that book wasn't written for you, it was written for Jews. Or so i heard.
It just upsets me that people think its ok to hurt others. To throw away others, all for God. I feel bad for people who are thrown away by someone because the someone felt that God was worth more then a living, breating person who freaking loves you. What does God give you to replace that? Nothing. I think its impossable to get into heaven. To many sins. I honestly hate it when i find out someone i know and are friends with, is big into God and that whole thing, because i know in their eyes, im nothing but a lost cause, and a pathedic excuse for a human being because i've sinned my whole life. They will look down on me just because im not like them. I love not devoting my life to some weird, thing. I like that because im feel free, and i feel freedom for others. I feel like God made us all different.. and we need to understand that.
With everything thats going on in the world. With Bush, and the whole gay marrage thing, i've just had it with religion in this country. I mean look at whats going on in the middle east. Fighting mostly because different religions just can't get along. There is to much forcing. To much imposing on others.. To much hardcore issues that keep ending in a violent mannor. Thats not good. I respect monks who follow the Buddha stuff. They believe in peace. They believe in respect for all living things, which means us too. Hell, they wanted Saddam not to be put to death. They respect. They don't push. Which is probably why no one ever gets in war with them.. and vice virsa.. As far as i know anyway.. I guess they aren't to far off though.. The monks divote their lives to their buddha.. the same way our nuns and God. So why is it i respect the monks more then nuns? Though nuns are not at all bad... They do so many selfless acts and are helpful to so many people, but you don't have to give up your life to God in order to do things like that. but, to many people, being a nun makes them happy. Its what they want, and i have no right to look down on them.. Yet.. i did with this girl. I just dont respect that way of life. So many things have happened to make me feel like its ok. Its to twisted. To much hyprocricy in there... To much judgeing. I don't approve of it because they teach you to look down on others who aren't like them. I look down on them. I do it because they have no faith in their own God. They have no respect for the lives he makes.. They have no respect for God giving us free will. He allowed us to choose a life that makes us happy.. and if its not to worshup him... then its a sad and pathedic life? I cry because i hate the way that religion teaches people to hate. It teaches us to judge. To look down on others who aren't like them. Teaches you to give up your life to kiss his ass.
I still believe that i don't think God put us on this earth just to worshup him, and do nothing with our lives. i hate the way it makes me feel to dislike it so much.. because im no better off then they are... God has a huge ego, and demands he be first in our lives. No one else but him, and thats so very wrong. I don't believe in that... Im very tired... and honestly.. i dont think i made a whole lot of sense.. .... I might delete this later and re-write it. I dont know.. I have friends who go to church, and grew up like that, and they are some of the coolest people in the world, and none of them push themselves on me. And that i highly respect. I don't care what religion anyone wants to be, but thats what you want to be... That may not be what the best friend standing next to you wants to be.... and you have to deside to either love them for who they are, or find them a lost cause and throw them away like trash. Im to busy loving my family, my friends, the important people in my life. They come first. Not God. God will never be first or even last in my life. I dont' like him. i don't like his ego, and he is no better then Hitler, of people conintue to act the way they do and represent him. SOME people, Not all!! I looooved Pope John Paul because he had a BIG heart! and respect the other religions in this world. See.. thats how people should live. do what makes you happy... . i dunno.. im going to nap.